Thursday, January 6, 2011

Ramblings from the mind of Jill

I just wanna know….how do you get over burn out? I know other people experience it too…whether it be in their jobs or in their home lives. Don’t get me wrong, I like my job. I won’t lie to you and say its easy, because its not….not when my goals are to take the store higher and make it better. But lately I just feel like all of the wind has been let out of my sails. I guess I mostly feel that the problem really lies within me. That maybe if I can find balance and peace within myself then I will have more to give to my job and in service to others. I know I need to spend more time in scripture study and in prayer. The relationship I have with my Heavenly Father and my Savior are important to me. Unfortunately, I haven’t spent as much time there lately and I’m definitely feeling the totality of that. There are also a few words and key areas that bring balance and fulfillment to my life. My essential self is characterized by three words…three words that are the summation of what makes me me. Trusting, Passionate, Self-expressed. A life coach once told me that as long as I was being true to these three things, and found evidence of them in my life, that I would be grounded. So I have to ask myself…am I being trusting? Am I being passionate? Am I being self-expressed? I know I am in some ways, but am I truly being true to me? There are also four ways that I relieve stress and get “filled up”. One is through physical activity. Yeah…not really doing that one right now, which is a huge problem and opens up a whole other can of worms into what’s out of whack in my life right now. One is through music. I am playing more music lately which is helping…teaching myself songs on the guitar or writing them completely from scratch. But I’ve been suspecting lately that what I really want, what I really need is for my hands to be on a piano more regularly. Those of you who have known me for a while know that this is an important part of who I am. I spent so many years practicing and playing the piano that without it I feel like something is missing. And for the past several years I haven’t been playing hardly at all. The third area is through spending time in the outdoors. I LOVE being outside…in the mountains, at the beach, in a park…it really makes no difference. If there is water around, then its that much better. Being outside reminds me that a loving God created this beautiful world. Kind of hard to do in the winter but you get my drift. And last, but certainly not least, is the fourth grounding factor. Quality time with family and friends. Since “quality time” is my primary love language, this one is very important to me. And is really the only one that is getting adequate play time right now. On days off I often go to my sister’s house and hang out all day. Just being in their space makes me feel so much joy. I need to see my parents more (sorry mom), so that is an area I need to focus on, because I love my parents and enjoy their company. And I also spend a lot of time with some good friends and my brother. So things, for the first time in a while, are doing okay in that area. I guess what comes next is action. Since I know what needs to be done, all that’s left to do is to do it, right? Too bad that’s the hard part. I can be self-aware all day long, but action? Yeesh.

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